sbentar tdi..ana chatting ngn adik² junior ana yg bakal interview MARA esok..so,dgn sorg adik ni..ana tolong la bace² essay MARA dy...tlg edit skit²..then tetibe plak..mcm Allah ilhamkan utk bukak pendrive lama ana..utk cri essay MARA ana sendri..
g my computer, double click 'removable disc F'...bukak folder 'words..words..'...voilà..ana jumpe essay lame ana..ana msh simpan rupenye...file MARA ESEI..
ana bukak..ana bace..n ana senyum...ni la yang ana tulis setahun yang lepas..mase org hot² nk cri scholarship...
BIODATA, STUDY AND CAREER PLANNING
My name is Nurfatrina binti Hamdan. I was born on 6th May 1990 in Sibu, Sarawak and grew up in Sri Aman. I have 5 siblings, and I am the youngest. My parents both are police pensioners. My formal education started when I was 5 years old in Tadika Kemas Balai Polis Sri Aman for 2 years. For the next 6 years, when I was 7 until 12 years old, I continued my formal education in Sekolah Kebangsaan Abang Aing. Being balanced in academic, co-curriculum and leaderships qualified me entitled as Tokoh Murid 2002, awarded by school and Sarawak Dumex Champion 2002, awarded by Dumex Sdn. Bhd.with collaboration of Ministry of Education Malaysia.
Thanks to God, by getting 5As in UPSR 2002, it qualified me to continue my formal education in secondary school in Kolej DPAH Abdillah, the institution where my mind grows rapidly and my skills of survival broaden. Although I was quite busy with clubs, activities and prefect’s tasks, I still can maintain my studies and being top 5 students. Again, thanks to God, I got 8As in PMR 2005, which makes my position at school more stable. With my excellent achievement in both fields, I was qualified to receive Petronas Scholarship for 2 years, starting from Form 4 until Form 5, which helps much to ease my parent’s financial burden. In upper form, is the moment where I broaden my experiences especially in management and leadership. I have wide experience in managing clubs, sport team and conducting lots of leadership and motivation programs and academic-based activities for students in college itself and students around Kuching. The climax of my leadership progress in Kolej DPAH Abdillah are when I was elected as Head Girl for Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar session 2006/2007 and chosen by Majlis Syura to be Vice President of Akademi Bestari Muda, a non-school organization. Thanks to God, who give me strength to maintain my achievement in academic and co-curriculum. I manage to maintain my position as top 30 students in my batch and awarded Anugerah Kepimpinan Pelajar by school. Again, all praise is to God, I was able to get 11As (8 1A 3 2A) in my SPM 2007.
I dedicated 11 years in school and climbed all the way to the top. Now is the moment where I have to choose my life path for the next step. To be a doctor is my passion. I want to be an obstetrician and gynaecology specialist (O&G). I would like to continue my study in medical course and study abroad. I have a dream to continue study in United Kingdom or Ireland, one of the greatest destinations to study medical. By study abroad, I am sure I can gain more experiences, broaden my vision to the world, which all those I can share and motivate the Malaysian youngsters when I am back and also in turn helps me prepare for the borderless global economy for the future. Due to my financial situation, I think scholarship is the only way out in order to achieve my biggest dream. I have decided that I really want to pursue medical course under MARA scholarship. I expect to finish study in 7 years, including 2 years of International Baccalaureate foundation program at Kolej Mara Banting before continue study to oversea. After graduated, I will go back to Malaysia, to serve to the nation. I am sure I am well-prepared physically and mentally for 2 years of housemanship before I can proceed to be a qualified doctor. I am aiming to be O&G specialist before the age of 35. I prefer to work with government as our public hospitals are lack of specialist, which can be a burden to whom that needed specialist services as non government often put a high price for the services. This means high capacity of effort is needed in order to achieve all this. But to me, being a doctor and being able to help others is my pleasure. Helping people is a satisfaction for me and I really hope I can achieve my dreams.
itu la yang ana tulis....setahun yang lalu..tulisan dari hati..dgn harapan n azam..tapi skrg..ana tersenyum dengan diri sndiri..betapa Allah tu sangat bkuasa...ana dapat offer MARA medic and the same time, Petronas geology....how high i put my dream..but now, Allah sent me here..In France...doing geology,turned 360°...gerakkan hati ana utk terima offer Petronas..
tu la reason nya jugak..why my blog named 'www.drfatrina.blogspot.com'...itu kenangan ana..selama²nya...
tapi ana akan tetap simpan gak impian tu..kalo ana mampu..lps geologi ana nk amik medic..kalo Allah bagi keizinan...ana nk jadi org² islam zaman dulu..mcm zaman abbasiyah..bukan stakat kuasai satu bidang,tp banyak² bidang sekali...kalo ana sndiri xdapat, ana harap ana dapat pasangan hidup yg mrupakan seorang doktor..kalo xdpt jugak..ana harap generasi ana akan ada yang smbung cita² ana...
dan kt sini jugak...ana ter'rappelle' doa² ana mase skolah dulu...
"Ya Allah, mohon diredhai impian ku utk menjadi doktor..namun sekiranya ada yang lebih baik dari itu..Kau kurniakanlah segala yang terbaik untuk ku...kpd Mu jua ku bermohon, dikurniakan ilmu pengetahuan yg luas.."
Allah tau banyak kan...mgkin geology la yg terbaik utk ana...en plus,ana pon xpnh trfikir nk blaja kat France..ngara yg mwajibkan ana blaja bahasa baru..blaja français...tp,bile pk balik pasal doa ana, itu la yg ana mtk kat Allah dulu²..beri kelebihan ilmu....dan xlayak la utk ana mengeluh psl kesusahan kat cni..sbb itu doa ana dulu²..dan Allah tau kpd sapa dy nk bagi hikmah dy...mcm ayat ni...
"Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya.." [2:286]
setelah beberapa bulan kat sini...ana nampak satu persatu hikmah Allah nk bagi utk ana...alhamdulillah
mula² kat france dulu..Mmg ana rasa sengsara gak..nk lupe impian lame...tambah la 'hamba² hina Allah yg berapi' tu dok bisik kat hati ana..jgn redha kat takdir Allah..
ana lawan gak..syukran kat Allah yg jumpekan ana ngn kakak² yg kuatkan keyakinan ana...dan bile ana di sini..ana rasa,jatuh ana bersambut..x tergolek sndri pon..jalan pjuangan yg ana pileh dulu² xhenti mati kutu kat situ...
baru beberapa bulan ana blaja geologi...blaja pasal ape yg ade di dasar bumi dan sebagainye..ana tersedar n Allah sedarkan..sungguh bumi Allah luas..ciptaan Allah tu maha segala²nya..byk pengajaran..bagi org yg berfikir...
"dan Dia yang menghamparkan bumi dan menjadikan gunung² dan sungai² di atasnya..dan padanya Dia menjadikan semua buah²an berpasang²an; Dia menutupkan malam kepada siang. Sungguh pada demikian itu terdapat tanda² (kebesaran Allah) bagi org yang berfikir.." [13:3]
chains of Alpes..séjours du ski,January 2009
the cliff of Moher, Ireland (uzlah..28 feb-7mac 2009)then..bile ana blaja french..mmg bukan satu perkara mudah..tambahan lagi ana mmg bukan org yg minat sgt bnde² literaire..awal² blaja dulu..dok tau pressure jek sbb markah krg memuaskan..tmbahan ana mmg xminat sgt fokus kt bnde² bhasa..tp,lama² Allah ajar lagi....
"kita plu kuasai bahasa, utk kembali kuasai dunia..kita plu kuasai skill communication,utk kembali ke Ustaziatul Alam.."
in order to spread all the words of Allah to peoples out there, to show greatness of Islam...we need to conquer language skill...
ana teringat dgn kembara ana di Ireland bulan lps...pada mulanya ana ikut jaulah dgn kakak² france..tp ana xnmpk ape yg ana cari...tp mgkin sbb niat ana kt Allah kot..ana nk beruzlah mse kt ireland...so segala² benda yg menyentuh hati ana berlaku selepas ana terpisah dr group jaulah...dari ana ditinggalkan sorg² di Galway..smpai ana berjalan sorg² kt Dublin city..
di Galway..Allah sediakan satu masa utk ana..jumpe sorg kakak ni..utk brainwash ana..clearkan mind ana...atur strategi balik..bersihkan matlamat perjuangan yg dh bersemak sebab bnde² dunia ni..
di Galway gak..kembali ke tempat impian lama ana..ana jalan² sehari suntuk di hospital, tgk life sebenarnya seorang doktor..
balik ke Dublin...ana jalan² sendirian..berita kehilangan basikal kesayangan ana Allah ganti dengan seorang kehadiran sahabat baru ana, seorang Irish woman...yang dah revert kepada Islam..yang mmg sgt menyentuh hati ana..perasaan ana...wahai Allah yang Maha Indah...
Fiona Aisha Scuffins...dy critakan dkt ana perjalanan hidup dy..dr family yang sangat kuat pegangan kristian..dy mencari kebenaran agama itu sndri..dan dgn jujur dy mengaku..Islam itu indah..ajaran Islam itu suci..Al Quran tu sgt kitab yg sgt precis,lengkap dan indah...mana x jatuh hati ana dengar kata² dy...diamond of Islam..
bersama Fiona Aisha...inside Dublin Mosque..sejak blaja french..ana akui ana dh sgt bermasalah nk ckp english plak..nk speaking pon terkelat²..then..bila ana jumpe Fiona..ana usaha gak nk ckp English..nk cakap kt dy..ayat² Allah..critekan kt dy lagi..keindahan Islam...dalam susah payah tu..Allah sedarkan ana..ajar ana.."Oh my slave, that's y u must enriche ur language..to conquer again my world.."dr crita tu jugak la..ana teringat kenangan ana..mase pegi ski kt Alpes januari lepas..Allah temukan ana dgn instructer ski ana sndri..nama dy Didier..mase duduk dlm bas ngn dy..kita org bcakap²..(didier: D, ana:P)
D:t'es musulmane? (r u a muslim?)
P: oui (yes)
D: moi, c'est pas facile pour expliquer..j'suis pas atheist..mais aussi, j'suis pas chrétien..si le Dieu existe, où est le preuve, la raison..si le Dieu n'existe pas, où est le preuve...moi, j'suis au milieu..croire que le Dieu existe, n'existe pas..mais où est le preuve...j'aime bien la nature..la nature est très² joli mais quelques chose qu'on peut pas expliquer...
(me, it's not easy to explain..i'm not an atheist but also, i'm not a christian..if God is exist, where's the proof..if God not exist, where's the proof..i'm in the middle..to believe God is exist or not exist..but where's the proof??..i love nature..nature is so beautiful but something that we can't explain...)
P: oo..d'accord..eerr..oui,la nature est quelques chose..aucune idée pour l'expliquer (oo..Ok..yes, nature is something...have no idea to explain it..)
[dialog ubahsuai sket]
tu la jawapan ana..yang ana kesal jugak sbnrnya...btapa ana rasa ana sia²kan pluang tu..utk beritahu dy apa yg dy x trfikir pon..atau bersihkan otak dy dr bnde yang halang dy fikir smpai ke tujuan sebenarnya...reason..ana xreti lagi nk express kata² Allah dlm french..sbb ana xbtul² kuasai bahasa...tp..Allah mmg bgi pngajaran dgn ana..sejak ari tu..
dan sampai skrg alhmdulillah..ana ttp gak bkontac dgn Fiona..ptemuan ptama ng dy tu..ana xsgka boleh btahan smpai skrg..bagaimana dy sgt caring..dan slalu tanya khabar melalui facebook..until one day..dy cakap kt ana...
"oh come back to ireland..sooooon inshaAllah..i want to sit n talk n talk n talk wif u....n take all ur knowledge..."
ana terkedu..dan ana fikir lagi...ya Allah ana ada satu lagi tanggungjawab...dan utk Fiona..insyaAllah i promise to go back to ireland....
kenangan dgn Fiona kat Dublin Mosque di Dublin 14 tu segar smpai skrg..xsgka Allah kuatkan hati ana utk pegi ke situ..walopun masjid tu mmg sangat jauh dr pusat bndar Dublin..hmpir sejam perjalanan...dan di masjid tu jugak la..
"Allahuakbar..Allahuakbar..." azan maghrib dilaung sekuat²nya..gema satu area Dublin 14 tu..rasa izzah dalam diri ana membuak² je..dan ana rsa sgt..ntah la tatau nk gambar perasaan mcm mane..setelah hmpir 10bulan xdgr azan dilaung se'izzah' tu...ana join jemaah maghrib kt ctu sblm balik ke rumah...dan air mata ana jatuh..mndengar bacaan imam yg indah dan mndayu..pnuh asyik n maksud ayat menusuk ke hati..seakan mndengar syed Al Ghamidi jek yg baca..dan ana tringt akan aturan Allah kat ana..yg ana slalu lupe....
Dublin Mosque, Dublin 14
itula serba sedikit crita ana...xlgkap..tp itu la antara yang paling bmakna..slame hidup kat France ni..wah..terbayar gak explanation n crite ana utk semua org...Allah mmg dah aturkan ni..mana yang kurang..itu mmg kekurangan ana...
apa yang ana nk cakap...dont under estimate the power of doa...ingat² n fikir²kan lah doa kita kan Allah slama ni...kalo ade kembara,niat kembali kepada Allah..dgn harapan Allah tarik hijab dari hati kita,mata kita....utk dapat pengajaran dari stiap perjalanan kita...
sebab ana juga hamba..msh byk jahiliyyah dalam diri..Mohon kpd sape²..kakak² or sahabat² yg bace tulisan ana ni..ingatkanla ana bila ana mengeluh..rasa lemah...
kerna perjalanan da'wah kita yang jauh...dan xjanjikan jalan yg indah,ditaburi wang atau bunga..ditambah lagi dengan tanggungjawab pada Dia dan orang sekeliling yang makin btambah...ana yakin ana tak patut rasa lemah n kalah lgi...walopun sbnrnye skrg ni ana menangis..sbb kesilapan masa lalu...lalai ana..paling ana takuti tayangan perdana amalan kita di mahsyar nanti..ana takut kalo ana mati dlm keadaan melakukan maksiat...
"Ya Allah terangi lah gelap hitam hatiku..Ya Allah sucikanlah hati ikhlas untukmu...ya Allah terangkan hitam gelap jalanku..." (sejuta harapan-daie nada)
" ya Allah 'abdun kathuraz zunubi..zadat hauni qurobi..minka ilaika qhurubi.."
~o my God, I have a lot of sins..my weakness has increase because of my sins..from u n to u must i get closed..~(mali rabbun siwaa-daie nada)
ayah n ibu yang dirindui...
cube tengok gambar tu...cerah je cuaca di padang arafah..ramai org,banyak khemah...mesti panas kan? luasnya padang arafah..byknyeeeee manusia...macam semut kerumun gula...
